Why Perservere?

Today I got my sixth bike stolen, this one from outside my Hotel Room. I'm on the fourth floor, and the bike was parked just outside my room in the afternoon. I kinda should have expected that someone might grab it , but didn't expect anyone to be so brazen to steal it from in front of my door. There was a tenant doing laundry on my floor, and the hallways are about 3ft across, I asked him if he seen anyone with the bike he , said he didn't. When I kept asking him about this he got irate about me asking him,as if I was blaming him, But he was walking around on the floor all morning, he didn't have time to notice someone carrying off a big red bike off the 4th floor here? He went back to his room and started gesturing like he had a gun.

It took me at least 15 minutes+ for me to connect with the police on the phone, to see if I could try to get them to come out, they wouldn't and suggested I try to file a police report online. I did.

Normally, losing a bike wouldn't drive a person to quit working to abandon their employment, especially in these times, But I feel, I could easily become a statistic here and no one would particularly care...

It's the 6th bike I've had stolen at least while I've been staying here, and it makes me think that there is very little reason to continue staying in this place, events in my life make it undesirable to stay in this area,but hard to leave unless I abandon most of the stuff I'm doing here.

I'd be leaving my job. But who cares, Most of my money goes into paying rent, for a job that gets tougher to do , while I get older..while the economy gets worse....and people get more desperate...and while I get ostracized for things I didn't do. Its ultimately a waste of time.

I was ready to give notice, and 30 days notice for leaving this Hotel. Living in the streets might be better than continuing to stay here, but I guess I asked myself.."Has there been anything I accomplished here? " I haven't really accomplished much, but recently I did get a green Belt in Judo!

My Instructor just handed it to me. I had been studying Judo for a couple of months and hadn't expect anything like that.I thought the green belt and Judo might actually be a burden for me at 48 years old. I could have went to Judo class this morning..if I did , maybe I'd still have that Bike.

I guess there are some thing more important that bikes, some thing more important than material things. I use the bike mostly to commute to work. So having something like that stolen again, and again, and again..brings it issues about whether working and living in this area is ultimately worthwhile. But then I thought about that Green belt....and maybe things seem alittle worthwhile.

Besides I keep a spare bike just in-case.