Black History month

As I said earlier , Martin Luther King Jr. was one of my role models. He was the only major Black figure that was a catalyst for change in America during the 20th Century. But he's dead! Given the state of Black -America , I hate to say it but it was probably an inside job.

If I were going to model any social protest in America today, it would be in the lines of what King , or Gandhi did. But you'd be hard pressed today in the Black Community to make this kind of social action. I think there is still to much apathy, fear and inertia for Black people in this country today to organize for some sort of social change. Maybe King was able to to it because he was alright a leader in his community, he was pastor of a church. He was married, had a loving wife, he had people around him that wa motivated with the same goals has he.

Has I tried to say earlier, I see a great need for change in the way America treats its citizens, particularly Black -Americans who have helped found this Country, who are now treated as third class citizens. African-American teenagers out of work, standing around street corners. They can't find work, but neither to they have much work-ethic. They resort to selling illicit drugs to ...each other. Black Men and Women, unemployed, homeless out of work, no hope or pride in themselves, so they beg for "spare change" on street corners. Forgetting the great struggles and sacrificies in the 1950's and 60's their contemporaries, and there parents , brother and sisters made for them. God save me from this fate.
Most of us are "up in Arms" literally ready to take up arms in defense of our well-beings and security. Its easy to blame the White man and women for all these ills , but in the final analysis perhaps much of the blame belongs in the Black Community.
Their failure to control the spread illicit drug activity in there communities, failure to mobilize when faced with legislation by this government which threatens there civil rights,communities and families ,failure of Black Americans to learn the lessons of history of their history and the history what other groups and cultures do? Failure to relate this to there children.

I myself don't have any children, but if I did I'd have a lot to say. I spend alot of time worrying about the state of black America, and all the kids out there who maybe won't get much of a chance to enjoy there adolescence like I did. I had friends, football ,ping pong and monopoly. Growning up was a breeze. Getting old is difficult.

When I see alot of these failures in the Black community it just breaks my heart.. I've tried to incorporate Martin Luther Kings Jr 's message into my life. If I can't mobilize the community into some kind of social action, I've tried to mobilize myself..I'm fortunate enough to have a type of job that give me a chance to make a statement in a small way. But I find my first adversaries are some of my own people in the Black community.

I try to work, But I have to get around the large numbers of my people who aren't working, like in this very Hotel. Who spend there time not doing much of anything ,every day. They might be receiving money from the government. Adult men and women with minds spending there time on the computer the hotel provides , playing children's games. Or there illicit substance abusers, or sex workers.

I like sex when I can get it, but I'm tired of the same broad trying to hustle me for a dollar for soap.. I offer her some soap and she goes." not that kind of soap."The women should just get a job. , I'd give the tip of my pinkie to help her, afterall she's very bright , lovable young women. But I think she's a crack addict.

Then when I get to work, on my "mission statement" I sort of have to dodge my way around the vast numbers of the homeless and beggars that inhabit the street of San Francisco. Its a national and racial disgrace. I find most of these beggars are Black...Some of them are able bodied men its just laughable and so its hard to believe that these people have just given up on themselves, maybe they come from broken families like mine.
Its hard to understand for me that these people have given up on themselves and their loved one in spite of the positive changes that there comporaries had to fight for not too long ago. It make it difficult for me to work sometimes ..To keep motivated. Do other people and races do they take me seriously? Can I take myself seriously? Its difficult.

What would Martin do? Sometime I'd think he'd cry. Not only for the great loss, but at the loss gained by the sacifice of his efforts, the efforts of others and even his own life.

These days I can't even blame the white man for the problems that beset the Black Community. In my own painful situation in this hotel, I'm being sexually harassed by a white man. It's really a "Mother" if you finally escape some of the oppression of one's own mind, to escape into the oppression of the real oppressor..The white man. Most black people aren't ready for that kind of stuff , particularly the people in this hotel, who are substance abusers, sex workers, non-workers, molesters, moronic and basic criminals. There fighting themselves on many issues... If there not trying to "turn me out" to a white molester, These "brothers around here call me a "Ho", a "punk ", even though I've been working primarily to help them.. So much for Martin Luther King Jr, just pass out the Crack pipe and the moolah.
The management of this hotel is black owned. They have been sitting on this issue as long as I been here and have done little to help. I guess its part of the Black experience to be raped while renting a room in a residential Hotel? One of the administrators for this Hotel said to me,"You can smoke and fuck here all you want." so why complain? After all it true, people would tell me , don't go there man, that's jail.
I guess I should have listened.

I can't even expect much help from the Black people in positions of power to help me. In the end maybe they will try to protect the status quo. After all all the beggars, un-employed blood suckers, sex workers, general parasites, elderly and molesters need a place to live also, where would be be if they didn't? And basically if you ask some of the people around here about me, maybe they would say there trying to "turn me out" to this guy in 711 to..why? Protect their kids from a virulent child molester? They would say it's for the kids..

I would say well why did you put the guy in here in the first place, black man? If your so interested in protecting your children , why not get a job, provided for your and their welfare so you can take care of them? Let the police do the rest.The old mayor of Oakland, Lionel Wilson, used to say has his motto "Feed and house your children".. Amen to that.