Are they after me again?

Well the word around the hood, is I'm to be shot. Possibly regarding the assault that occurred to me some weeks back, by that girl and her friends. Its a really scary feeling wondering if I step outside for a while, some gang of youths are going to attack me, much less shoot me ..and for what, to protect there pedifile and drug sales for unemployed, disaffected youths?

I have a shotgun but, that not a concealable weapon. Maybe I need a small concealable weapon, but alas I don't have the money to get one at this time. I'm not worried about anyone breaking in my room. I was worried about my mother and her big house here in Oakland. One of the reason I can blame for not having the money to get another weapon is Wells Fargo Bank. I don't have the money, not because I couldn't get a loan or line of credit, even though I banked with W/F since 1990.

I've been using "direct deposit advance" lately a lot for purchases. "Direct deposit" given me by Wells Fargo ,I didn't ask for it. "Direct Deposit Advance" is where you can borrow money from the bank, and the money is paid back or debited from any direct deposit that put into your checking account...Like a paycheck. Recently (after my gun purchase), they decided to reduce the amount I can borrow. I can't make a deposit withdraw for one month, this will restore the upper limit on the amount I can borrow. Which is fine, except, all my purchases have been covered because of my job, I don't owe them money...And I didn't ask for the direct deposit in the first place! Kind of a bunch of crooks, wouldn't you say. Like a bunch of drug dealers.


Carrying concealed weapons in California without a permit is a big crime. Some of my other articles here make light of the fact ( Or I tried ) that more guns is not going to make the U.S A better place to live. They aren't enough jobs, but plenty of drugs and guns here in the U.S to provide the youth in this country with with Jobs. George W. Bush's brother, "Jeb Bush" Govenor of Florida..Passed a ruling..I heard about on the radio, making it legal for citizens there to carry concealed weapons. Sure to please the gun crowd and people like me, victim of a violent crime. But it seems a bandaid fix to the bigger economic problems facing states like Florida and other states in the Union. Its like the Bush administration is leaning heavily on the war in Iraq, to justify its inaction on fix of the current economic woes facing the United States. But I would give the tip of my pinky just to get a good small semi-auto right now, and the right to conceal it. I used to write passionely for gun control, but I still believe in it. I broke my own law I guess buy buying that shotgun.

So what about those kids that assaulted me, whets being done, nothing as far as I know from the police. I called the police a number of times..All I have a is a written report of the police report ""05-20858" in Oakland, California. But I have heard little from the police, nor do I have the will to prosecute/or shoot a bunch of weak adolescents led by some crackpot girl, but I expected more, by the police .

I got beat-up in broad daylight, I was just trying to practice my guitar....In a downtown section of a park..No one even called the police. there were other circumstances, but basically I was mining my own business ..on some children's crusade..what has this crusade cost me?

The most painful thing about this drama in my life now, is that its likely to end my career with _______ one way or another. I've been working with _________ for several years now. In less than a year if I continue I'll be able to receive retirement benefits... a severance check which I might decide to leave, or resign with. If I leave _______ now I may never get that little money. And this is the first job I've had since I've been on the planet in 42 years , that been a relatively good one...Though after 9-11 my interpersonal relationships hurt quite a bit. This has been the first job that I've been able to stay at long enough to get retirement benefits...now I may be forced to relocate..without a set place to stay, or I may have to quit..just so I can get out of here and save my life.

I always though I could depend on my mother, but she wont even help me , nevermind she lives alone in that big old house in Oakland. But My staying there might create more problems for her, But she is very vunerable staying there but herself.

Well maybe this is goodbye, like I said the word around here is that I'm going to be shot, but some hoodum kids, ..I think basically there afraid of some child molester ( the troll that's been bothering me, "Payback at crack hotel") rampaging through there neighborhood, my life. I guess alot of white people will be congradulating themselves. They can get there niggers to do the dirty work for them, it just that white people in America have this propensity to be led astray by there leaders lately. They fight unjust wars at home and abroad. Abroad in Iraq..and at home, when they interfere in my life in order to support a criminal or other criminals. They let them molest, disturb the weaker elements of this society, and I'm a little more deterimed not to be one of them