MiSSioN ACcoMPliShed?

I been working for 5+ plus years now part-time flex. 5 years at the same job, that's actually a record for me at 43 years of age. In January I'll be 100% vested in my job's retirement program, there's a beginning balance of a couple of thousand dollars, that I'll be eligible to get along with a little 401k money thats available to me if I decide to leave.

That was my plan recently, about six months ago, when things were getting hot in my environment ( at the hotel), when talk seemingly about me turned to rape,killing and shooting. I wanted to leave then, with only a Paycheck of a couple of hundred dollars. I had to wait a few more months till I could access my 401k money from my job, (and still have a job) and wait some more months when a couple of thousand dollars available in my retirement program from my job in January 2006. While I was fearing for my life cause of developments related to housing problems that I have talked about on this Blog.

I've made it, but what do I do now? I really wanted to leave, but with the job market the way it is, I'll be very lucky if I ever find another job like the one I have now? I'm kinda blessed here, if you want to call it a blessing. There are so many people hurting unable to find good jobs. Jobs being cut everyday, yet how can I stay here.

I'm being harassed by people in this new hotel and I need to move again possibly. My job sites are getting difficult to work, cause people are so mean and thoughless, they remark about my situation as it seems alot of people around here are aware of it. Meanwhile I feel fortunate if I escape death or the death of my loved ones, as I get threats .....cause some troll wants to put the make on me. Talk about stress. I wish I could get up and go away from here, maybe camp out in a desert somewhere for a while. People actually do this, they just up and go sometimes with little or no money. Fortunate people that have money could just do this.

I'll probably try to stay a while at my job and such, see if I can work things out, and not run away. Sometimes you have to work through things ,not around them, but if this continues it will probably be the death of me.

On the other hand, staying here could be an error. I think of New Orleans, and Hurricane Katrina, and it reminds me that some things have to change, and are not redeemable. With Hurricane Katrina, it hit the city of New Orleans with Force 4 hurricane winds and a storm surge of almost 28 feet. It hit New Orleans, a city built below sea level , and you had the making of a bad situation, a soup. and Of course New Orleans is in a part of the world thats frequented by Hurricanes.
not a good situation with alot of poor folks with homes built there. New Orleans is potentially a swamp.

Like New Orleaners and in my case it might be better to move on. What to do, what to do? Indecision sets in.....