When I feel like this...

When I feel like this It feels good to write this Blog, although I wonder if anyone will see it.
When I feel like this I dont know what to do , nor do I have anyone reliable whom to talk to.

My job is trashed, these people around this Hotel whom I been fighting against have really manage to wreck me. I can't go anywhere without someone saying, "there going to shoot him", "he's gotta Ho", "we need to shoot him", "There going to shoot him and his mother".

When I feel like this I wonder , why do these brothers want to hurt me so much, is there employment situation that bad. All I've done was to help, cant they leave me alone? If I shoot everyone that came around me making threats like that ..and I shot them...there would be a pile of bodies.

My Job requires alot of public exposure, I cant do it or it becomes a probelm if my reputation is somehow tarnished.., "I'm a Ho", "I'm marked for death" other people suggest this...its makes it very hard to work. I'd like to cut and run but I dont have much money...also there my Mother to think about (threats have been made against her and she not mentally all together in my opinion), she needs help..BUT SHE WONT ALLOW ME TO MOVE IN, she's got the room. So my other alternate is to leave...take my shit and go.

When I feel like this , I dont know what to do, I hate it when I'm indecisive like this.